So this is something I’ve been meaning to do for some time, but always held back on executing. I have trouble actually achieving the things I hope to do in my life, because I’m too lazy, or too preoccupied with my own nonsense, or I’m smack dab in the middle of my fifteenth marathon of Friends. Either way, I’d like to start sharing things with you through the written word, which is a medium that’s become my lifeblood over the past decade.
I’m not going to bore you with semantics. You don’t need to know how old I am or what I do to pay the bills or what my Saturday nights look like (spoiler alert: I’m in bed by 9:00 pm). I’m just a woman trying to do what every other person in the world is trying to do: find his or her own way in life.
There’s lessons to be learned every single day. Some are sad, depressing, and ones you could kick yourself for learning too late. Hindsight is, after all, clear as day. But there is no negative without the positive. You can find a positive lesson amid the thorns and brambles, but you have to want to see it. Dwelling on the negative is easy; looking toward the brighter side is what’s difficult.
I used to think I learned lessons every day. Maybe I still do, but I notice when things go on an even keel for me, I assume all is well and think all my actions are perfect. But they all can’t be. Sometimes, in retrospect, if you find yourself questioning things more than you’re not, perhaps it’s time to reassess where you’re going.
Life isn’t perfect. You run into rocky battles from time to time, where you’ll find the day’s biggest accomplishment is taking a shower. But storms are meant to be weathered, and there’s always a possibility to find a source of light in the dark. I have to believe that. That’s just how my life lens works.
I see both sides of the coin simultaneously, and the only way that’s achieved in a non-metaphorical sense is with a mirror. Holding the mirror up for others is simple. Pointing out people’s shortcomings is one avenue toward getting your blue checkmark on Twitter. It’s spinning it around and gazing at your own reflection that can be the daunting task, and not everyone is up to it when you want them to be.
I don’t know where I’ll be going on this little corner of the internet, but I hope to provide some insight along the way as I try to form a cohesive thought stream. I just feel a lot, and I can’t apologize for it anymore. If you ask those to listen, you’d better be prepared to return the favor. So please, pull up a chair. Have some tea. We’re going to be here for a while.