(17) epilogue elucidations

SEPTEMBER SURRENDER: DAY SEVENTEEN What I'm Letting Go I've been thinking a lot about NaNoWriMo lately. I feel more ready to write a story than ever. Getting to 1,700 words a day isn't going to be easy, but I'm going to do it. The thing I worry about is finishing it. I've never been good…

(16) shushing up

SEPTEMBER SURRENDER: DAY SIXTEEN What I'm Letting Go I miss being at the lake. I miss the silence that came with it. The stillness. It was all so peaceful and real. I still felt like a city girl in the mountains, but there was such a calmness that came over me as I pretended to…

(15) halfway heart

SEPTEMBER SURRENDER: DAY FIFTEEN What I'm Letting Go I don't feel well today. I woke up just wanting to go right back to sleep. My head started hurting last night, with the pain building up right between my eyes, then traveling back to the rest of my head. I was completely run down when I…

(14) dressing down

SEPTEMBER SURRENDER: DAY FOURTEEN What I'm Letting Go I had a much different attitude when I woke up this morning. Which is weird because I had such a hard time falling asleep last night. My mind wouldn't stop racing, which happens sometimes. But it caused a restless kind of sleep that I wasn't sure would…

(13) supposedly great expectations

SEPTEMBER SURRENDER: DAY THIRTEEN What I'm Letting Go I woke up in a horrible mood. I sat on the edge of my bed for ten minutes, just staring into the dark until I found the courage to get up and get dressed. It was a multitude of things holding me back; Going back to work…

(12) pick & choose

SEPTEMBER SURRENDER: DAY TWELVE What I'm Letting Go I'm a chronic skin-picker. It's been that way my whole life. I have issues with my fingers. I pick and bite at my cuticles and scratch the skin all around my nails. I'll even bite or chew it all off until it bleeds. As long as I…

(11) connecting to what’s real

SEPTEMBER SURRENDER: DAY ELEVEN What i'm letting go I've been using this vacation in the mountains to really reconnect with myself and what I'm about. I've pampered myself with a mani-pedi and a facial, along with bringing my laptop places and writing about what I see. I even brought it along on a kayaking trip…

(10) what’s not to hate?

september surrender: day ten what i'm letting go Remember the "Talkboy?" It was a toy that coincided with Home Alone 2: Lost in New York. It was the hottest Christmas gift in 1992, and I wanted it. Everyone did. But I got it first, and later the Talkgirl, which was pink, and of course only…

(9) clarity imminent

SEPTEMBER SURRENDER: DAY NINE WHAT I'M LETTING GO There's a placid lake before me. No wind disrupting it. I kayaked on it today. I didn’t bring anything with me. If I fell in the lake, there would have been no one around to notice. That did go through my head but I was so transfixed…