(29) be told, truth [june renew]

The thing about liars is they eventually run out of lies to tell. Eventually, they will have to tell the truth, no matter how horrible it may be. You cannot lie to cover up for another lie for very long. It’s impossible for us to memory hole anything when we’re being watched and recorded at all times. So we may as well speak the truth, no matter how devastating it may be.

Is it human nature to lie? I feel like I don’t lie. I say what I mean, even if what I say isn’t necessarily everything I’m feeling. And I feel like no one has lied to me. I have it in my head that I’d just be able to tell when they’re deceiving me. Therefore, I don’t let them lie to me. Instead, I’ll find the appropriate venue to call them out and get this resolved with truth on our side.

Then again, I’m a dreamer. I’m an idealist. All this sounds good. It sounds like a utopia to some degree. But I have to keep reminding myself to fall back down to earth and remember we’re all human. There are certain things that are impossible for us to avoid. But as humans, we have the ability to choose our actions. And based on all I’m seeing now, too many among us are making the choice to actively lie right to our faces. It’s inexcusable. It has no place here. It needs to go.

I say all this, feeling like I want to lead the charge into battle. But, truth be told, I’m a lot shyer than I let on. I have all these ideals and this moral code but when it comes time for me to enact it, I clam up. Am I therefore a liar because I wax poetic about what I’d do and never actually do it? I don’t know. It’s all so terribly confusing. My mind does tend to spin its wheels these days, as I’m looking for a way to contain all this mindful energy.

There’s always going to be his version, her version, and the truth lying somewhere in the middle. I’m not so sure I see people actively searching for the truth, rather they are demanding access to it from the higher ups. Which is a good first step. I just want to be able to overcome my shyness (and laziness) to actually find a way to do something about it. I’m not intellectually curious enough to ask questions about these lies we’ve been fed in an active pursuit for the truth. That involves research and there’s a growing fear of what I may find. I hope I can overcome this one day because truthfully, it gets a little old bouncing the same tennis ball against the same brick wall over and over again.

All I’m asking is for the people to have their own little eureka moments, whatever they may be. Because I’m not satisfied with being lied to for the rest of my life. I’m asking for you to ‘thine own self be true’ before whatever it is you may want to do. If you’ve got truth in your heart and aren’t just pretending you do, then let the sun in so that you may shout it out. Things are really heating up out there, and I’m not just talking about the temperatures. Better to be honest about what you see down here in reality rather that live in the cutthroat kingdom where noxiousness reigns. Honest to God the stink is overwhelming lately. And we’re already halfway through the year. Seems as good a time as any to really face the music. No lie.