(17) a shift in the winds [june renew]

Everyone is talking about energy today. My co-workers said there was major Friday energy in the control room today. I didn’t feel it. I was in an office all by myself. It’s fine, it’s just how the schedule goes this week. But it wasn’t just work. People online were talking about “the energy” today. My father on the phone talked about “the energy” he was feeling. It all feels so strange and significant and although I don’t think it’s because of me, I would like some credit in having pointed it out.

I feel like I get no credit for all my great ideas. Because someone else says them out loud first. I don’t cast a wide enough net for anyone to give weight to my words. I mean, it’s fine. Perhaps I just haven’t found my medium yet in order to make that happen. It will happen when it’s meant to. Because right now, I just have these little habits that I’m trying to do daily in order to get me to where I want to be.

I spoke yesterday about the light switch turning on (or off) overnight. It could very well be true. It could have happened, or still could happen. Either way, the shifts do seem to happen overnight. This brings out a little chuckle in me, as I work an overnight shift and have to set the tone for the news of the day. I think we’ve been doing a good job, as my goal each and every day is to present what’s going on in a clear and unbias way. I call it like I see it. And I’m seeing everyone starting to be on the same page.

It’s an unprecedented time in my lifetime. The same could more than likely be said for all of us. But I’ve just never seen so many people proclaiming the same sentiment in their own voices. There’s a big sweeping pushback on all the nonsense, as more and more opportunities crop up to call things out for what they really are. It’s fascinating to see. It’s a shift in perspective, and yet, energy. It’s abundantly clear, and I don’t even want to predict where it’s going. I just want to be around to see it.

That won’t be a problem. I’m not going anywhere. I go where I’m needed, where the shift takes me. One day I decided I needed a bigger place, so I began the search for a new home. Today I decided I wanted to eat better, so I didn’t snack and waited to cook my own dinner. The shift happens, and I go along with it. It’s not always easy to spot, but it’s there, radiating out, waiting for me to catch the energetic wave and ride it off into the sunset.

There’s so much to see, and so much to experience. I’m not going to be upset when I’m upset. I’ll just let myself feel it and find the next thing to focus on. If this many people are feeling what I’m feeling, who cares if I don’t get credit for it right away? It means it’s at least on its way, right? Seems inevitable at this point. But there can always be a change in the winds. There’s always a chance our ship could blow us off course until we right the sails. And the confidence has returned to let me know I’ll always be able to do so, in one way or the other.

So for now, we go forth, blow past all the “symbols” and “signs” and just feel what we feel in the moment. There’s a lot to go by these days. It’s best to ride like the wind instead of getting caught in an updraft.